Pink Ribbon 3: After the diagnosis

(This is a series of raw journal entries from my breast cancer journey.) Journal Entry: October 20, 2013 12pm Sunday at home Precious Savior, Thursday brought sad news and You have been faithful to carry us. Though realism prepared me …

Aging Dreams — Hope that Outlasts Expiration Dates

Today, I am typing from an earth-brown chair by a tame fireplace in Cannon Beach, Oregon where I am attending my final two DMin classes. The day is perfect for writing and I woke up with anticipation, excited to write. …

Pink Ribbon 2: Waiting

Below is a continuation of journal entries from my breast cancer journey. As I mentioned in Pink Ribbon 1, the entries are raw. Additions/edits for clarity are in brackets. Regarding timeline: The radiologist expressed her concerns about cancer on October …

Pink Ribbon 1: No Peppermints

On October 9th, 2013, I sat in a waiting room watching brightly dressed volunteers graced with pink vests and peppermints escorting anxious women into the glass walled corner nook for them to receive good news about their mammograms. The waiting …

Tea, Taste Buds, and Change

Though I entered marriage with a love of hot teas, somewhere along the line Barry and I began to specifically favor Early Grey hot (pronounced, of course, with an accent) with half & half vanilla creamer or sweetened condensed milk. …

Pruning

The pruning knife rested on the defenseless plant. “Surely not that one!” I cried as the gardener skillfully cut away another branch. She looked at me and smiled: “Don’t worry my friend. It’s for the good of the plant.” Watching …

On Simplicity, Complexity, & Mystery

Well, September 19th would have been my dad’s 74th birthday. For some reason, it hit me harder this year. Dad and I were very close and I cannot express how deeply I miss our daily talks. But grief is unpredictable. …

My Atheist Dad, Moses, & Jesus On Leadership

Dipping his Oreos in ice-cold whole milk, Dad’s brown eyes would dance as he asked, “So how’s the daughter?” Those smiling eyes would never leave me while we talked into the night. All the thoughts within me—my perceptions and objections, …

Big Brother Bookkeeping

(From thoughts that began collecting in my 1995 journal.) In Luke 15:2, the Pharisees register a complaint against Jesus: “This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.” Included in Jesus’ response to the leaders’ disapproval is the beloved parable of the …

Liberty, Lawlessness, & Control

Seven Woes, part 7 Woe to those who prefer the spirit of control over the spirit of liberty. Will we expend the energy to pursue interior holiness? For years I have been thinking about a disturbing and distinct division among followers …